Lay Down

In the deep pit of darkness

I was drowning in that venom in my head

And nothing can patch that hole

Ceaselessly growing in my soul.

Such void was relentless

Waiting for something, anything

And thus my soul suffered in silence

Bound in this carnal existence.

I longed to rest, I wish to give up

And let whatever may come, come!

But most of all  I want to be done--

To be done and be gone. 

Bewildered, I found out then

That such soul wanted to explode

Out of this piece of meat

And be one with you.

Why is freedom too dear? 

What is there to fear?

What sort of love destroys- none. 

'Twas not love at all but ignorance

That brought you to the heights of the ether

Then threw you violently down

To the bitter ground

And broke your bones into fragments

Until you forgot what you were

Who you were

And what was kept in you

By the perfect Hand

And whatever it was that was inside you

Dimmed until all that was left

Is a void that eats you

Till you're nothing but a rotten piece of meat.

Your Savior, you sought Him

But why was He silent?

Why would He not speak a word?

What's all this for?--

Those questions began

Until you ran out of answers,

You ran out of life

And you wished never to have been born

You wanted something more 

More than sleepless nights

You wanted to fill

That hole in your soul.